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When she walks into the room,
everybody turns:
some kind of light is coming from her head.
Even the geraniums look curious...
We're all attracted to the perfume
of fermenting joy,
we've all tried to start a fire, and one day maybe it will blaze up on its own.
In the meantime, she is the one today among us
most able to bear the idea of her own beauty, and when we see it, what we do is natural:
we take our burned hands
out of our pockets,
and clap.
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Apr. 23rd, 2011 @ 10:16 pm Holy Shit!
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: no music, just dull hum from tv.
So yup, I am updating my live journal, seems so primitive now. Its been so long since I was last in this silly thing and much has changed, but alas I move forward.

Still in my little house in Echo Park, added a few more pups, Olga and Stella. Booked a few more acting gigs and bought a cute dress at Target.

Excited for this summer I feel its gonna be a good one.
Excited for my new bunk bed, yup I said it, BUNK BED...what? it's like so uncool cool. Right? I am hip. Hipster hip...blah, whatever.

My house smells like Yankee Candle, overwhelming scents but calming scents non the less so I do not mind. Watching Bones on Netflix. Addicted to Bones. Love it. But have no fear my obsession will change soon enough to another silly show.

Have good good news I cannot share with the world...calm calm my dear devoted readers (haha, hi, yea you the only one reading this, so glad you do though) I will tell my good fortune soon enough!

Emotionally I feel ok...I say this with a slight pause and reflection has some days I do not feel ok, but today, today is an ok day.

Went to see an art show last night, my old roomie, Eli had some neat trinkets up on display. Honestly it just looked like his old bedroom. Anywho, I hope it went well and he made some sales...hehe, I have stuff he's done for free in my house! See it just goes to show you its all in who ya know and I gots the hook ups bitches!! yea yup never doing gangsta again...

sigh...

and we move on.

Well all this silly updated has made my typing hands tired and another episode of Bones calls to me...

Bones: Suuuuuuuziey....oHHHHHHHH, suuuuuuuzzzzzziiiiieeeeyyy! Watch me! I am episode 66!!! Severed finger episode! Cool, huh?
Suziey: Ok OK I am coming 2 minutes! I am finishing up this old live journal post, oh hey I wrote about you though, yeah said nice things don't worry.

Again, ideas I think would be cute end up just coming out well, for lack of better word, retarded. Gosh now everyone will think I have an issue with real special needs people and I don't. Shit, I myself have special needs...yeah I know NOT the same thing, AT ALL.

Ok two minutes are up and I am going now. Until next time and fuck who knows when that will be.
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Wedding
Feb. 5th, 2009 @ 11:47 am and release...
so here i am updating this...i am sitting on the toliet, gotta love laptops haha get it laptops!! anywho...
i haven't written in this because lets face it people myspace and facebook have taken over the world but to those still loyal to livejournal i salute you!
so here i am still in LA, haven't gone home crying or given up and why should i? i've done really well here. It's my fourth year and i feel I've accomplished much. Done a few little movies and a commercial, pay rent somehow every month. I live in a nice house now instead of just a small room, it's been good.
of course things are hard and the past year was really hard personally but career wise I am up and up and excited for 2009 :)
damn it, i am finished using the toliet but not finished here, think i will stay awhile and write some more and welcome the big red ring that will appear on my ass in a short time.

eh, fuck it. i am done writing...can't think of anything, well got so much i can think of where to start, overwhelmed i guess.
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Nov. 6th, 2008 @ 05:32 pm New President and a New Entry.
So wow. i never write in this anymore but here's something for all of you to read.

'nuff said

What was last thing​ you ate?
corn chips

Can you sleep​ in jeans​?​
sure can

What is somet​hing you just don’t​ under​stand​?​
how prop 8 in california passed

Who was the last perso​n you were in a car with excep​t for famil​y?​
colin, gave me a ride to my call back (which i booked the job! whoohoo!)


Is there​ someo​ne on your mind that shoul​dn'​t be?
no, what a strange question


Do you think​ you'​ll be marri​ed in 10 years​?​
sure but I would have said sure 10 years ago so go figure

What do you look forwa​rd to in the next 3 month​s?​
more jobs and class and christmas


How many peopl​e of the oppos​ite sex do you fully​ trust​?​
most


Do you plan on movin​g in the next year?​
nope


Where​ did you get the shirt​ you are weari​ng?​
squaresville

Do you like winte​r?​
love the snow for the few weeks i see it when i go home for the holidays

Do you regre​t anyth​ing?​
sure but i've learned

Do you enjoy​ late night​ phone​ conve​rsati​ons?​
not a huge talker on the phone


What are you doing​ tomor​row?​
working


Hones​tly,​ what'​s on your mind right now?
i just booked a job!!

Do you think​ a lot of peopl​e say bad thing​s about​ you?
don't care

Are you growi​ng apart​ from someo​ne close​?​
did and miss them now


What will you be doing​ at 8AM tomor​row?​
getting ready for work


What are you liste​ning to right​ now?
arlo attacking his bed in his crate

Do you want child​ren?​
um...


Do you wear conta​cts/​glass​es?​
both but not at the same time



Favor​ite movie​?​
the goonies


What were you doing​ before filling this out?
ready what mike said when he filled this out before me


Who would​ you like to see right​ now?
tim, to tell him i booked the job and my mom


Have you ever fired​ a gun?
yup a 22 at some beer cans when i was a kid (country girl)


Do you like to trave​l by plane​?​
sure, love road trips though too

Right​-​hande​d or Left-​hande​d?​
right


Are you missi​ng someo​ne?​
lots of family and friends


Are you hidin​g somet​hing from someo​ne?​
not at the moment

Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e whose​ name start​ed with an N?
um...yes long long time ago in land far far away


Do you think​ you will have your hair fall out from dying​ it too much?​
i hope not


Is there​ a girl that knows​ every​thing​ or mostl​y every​thing​ about​ you?
amber


Is there​ a boy that knows​ every​thing​ or mostl​y every​thing​ about​ you?
tim

What is one thing​ you would​ love to happe​n today​?​
it did i booked a job! oh and to eat dinner!



I'm so fucking sorry if you read that. (haha mike wrote that last part and i am leaving it)

Will update soon with real information i promise!
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Wedding
Jun. 25th, 2008 @ 12:23 pm It's HERE!!!
Current Location: Silverlake Coffeehouse
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Update over due...why of course it is when is it not?

With me I am doing well, Tim and Eli and I live in a nice house in echo park...pictures to come I promise, can't seem to get my photobucket to work.

I am still a struggling actress but many good good prospects!! The little indie movie that I was in last summer is still stirring quite a buzz and the premiere is here in hollywood on july 12 and Focus Features is interested in purchasing it so they will be there...so that is exciting!

I am headed back to the Michigan area for my cousin's wedding and just found out the other night that my other cousin is engaged as well...happy love and yippee I get to be in yet another wedding, um I think that is 8.

On a sad note some pretty tragic things have happened in my life; my oldest friend Jimmy past away at the young age of 30, he was HIV positive but it was horrible fall that took his life. I was mugged but I am alright and just lost about 76 dollars...can't trust anyone. My good friend that I love dearly, jodi. she was my neighbor here in LA until she moved back to Wiscousin took her own life a few weeks ago. She was my age. I miss her so so much and just wish I could have done something.

On a more positive note I took it upon myself to make a vision board with what I want to accomplish in the next year of my life and I wake up each day and look at and say, "today is going to be a positive day". So far it seems to be working auditions have picked up and things are going well in the acting department. I have started a great class under Brad Henke, amazing coach and I am learning a lot. Incredible nice and down to earth people. Saw The Strangers, loved it, fucking brillant and so so scary. I was talking about in my acting class last sunday and found out that a girl in my class, her boyfriend wrote and directed that. Based on actual events too. The Mason murders, the unsolved Kiddie murders in 1981 in Kiddie, California, and a childhood memory of his own. Chilling.

Still have the best manager in town and hope to make him lots of money soon :)

The day job is good and I am surviving somehow.

George the cat is well and got out when we first moved but was successfully found and hasn't tried a second escape. Adopted a bunny, Arnie and he is well and is litter trained. George and Arnie get along great.

The heat wave in LA seems to have cooled down, THANK GOD!!! It was crazy hot.

Still have an intolerace to wheat and gluten and so far enjoying my gluten free lifestyle.

So all in all life is good and I am good.
Hope all you out there that even read this are doing well.
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I HEART LA
Apr. 1st, 2008 @ 04:03 pm Dedicated to Mr. King
Current Location: Panera Bread, Fenton
Current Mood: blahblah
So I know it's been awhile since I've posted here but I have been trying to keep myself on the DL due to some rumors a flying about, strange ones at that, are they true? maybe so? hmmmm...anyways do to lack of creativity on what to write about I shall answer this questionaire, taken from a myspace bulletin so if there are myspace references do your best to ignore them.

Last time you consumed alcohol?
This past saturday in the hospitality suite when I was in Chicago for Launch, I had a few glasses of white wine.

If you were stranded on an island and couldn't bring anything but one thing, what would you bring?
Toothpaste

Have you ever drank with your number two?
(meaning number two on my top friends on myspace) Um, honestly don't remember who my number 2 friend is and I am sure we've been drinking together unless it's Mouse and then no would be the answer.

Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
I am at Panera Bread in Fenton, Michigan. I am home for my cousin's bridal shower this weekend, I am feeling good.

What is your opinion about George Bush?
I am over it already

What song are you listening to?
Bad jazz that is playing in this coffeehouse.

How long have you been liking the person you currently like?
A little over a year.

Did you have a good birthday this year?
It was nice and relaxing.

Are you tired right now?
Nope.

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
To each their own, I am fine with it.

Favorite actor?
Jon Cusack

Have you ever been called a tease?
Probably.

Where are you going on the next holiday ?
Um, that would be Memorial Day and I believe I will be in LA.

Who are you talking to right now?
No one I am online.

Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
Yes.

What color are your eyes?
Blue/green

Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you didn't do?
I am not sure if yes no one as said anything to me about it.

As of today, do you like anyone?
Dumb question considering the past few questions deal with relationships and what not. So um, yes.

Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 24 hours?
Nope.

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
I believe so. Making movies is rough.

Do you like your first name?
Yes.

Do you like to cuddle?
Sure.

Last person you cried over?
Tim

Do you cry easily?
In movies, yes. I am such a sap.

Where do you want to live when you're older?
Well I am older now and I love where I live, when I am more established I would love to live in Wyoming.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Shopping at Target with my mom.

What was something that happened to you in 1993?
That would be 8th grade so um, I went to Chicago on my 8th grade trip.

Three words to explain why you last threw up:
I had the flu last year at Christmas.

Where do you keep your money?
When I have money, in the bank or my wallet.

What is the weather like today?
Raining, windy, freakin' cold as fuck!!

Who was the last person to hold your hand?
A little girl named Abby in my acting class I taught actually.

Do you wanna cut your hair?
Yup and I am doing it thursday!!

Do you watch wrestling?
Never.

Do you have a significant other?
Yep.

Are you a jealous person?
Nope.

Family or friends?
Both.

Who's the last person to call you?
My dad.

Do you chew on your straws?
Sometimes.

Do you have curly hair?
I do.

What is the next concert you're going to?
Hopefully Tom Waits.

Where did you go today?
Target and now here at Panera Bread.

How many people do you trust completely?
A few, I am a trusting person but cautious as well.

What is something you say a lot?
Fuck

Do you have work tomorrow?
I do not I am out of town.

What should you be doing right now?
I got nothing to do, again I am out of town.

Are you a heavy sleeper?
Yes.

Well that was boring but hey at least I made an entry. :)
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Black Snake Moan
Jan. 30th, 2008 @ 03:38 pm I am so first in line...
After months of speculation and rumor, the Kids are coming back. A well-placed source tells PEOPLE exclusively that New Kids On The Block are indeed getting back together.

The band's Web site, www.nkotb.com, which had been dormant, is now back up and running in anticipation of the official announcement, which the source says will be made in the next few weeks.

The site currently features a television graphic with a fuzzy, flickering photos of NKOTB in their heyday, and a link inviting fans to sign up for info.

The boy band, which made legions of tweens swoon in the early '90s, selling more than 50 million albums, became a worldwide phenomenon before calling it quits in 1994.

Eighteen years later, they're still "Hangin' Tough." The oldest "Kid," Jonathan Knight, now a real estate developer, will turn 40 later this year. Since the band's demise, former members Donnie Wahlberg, 38, and Joey McIntyre, 35, have seen acting success, while Danny Wood, 38, has worked as a music producer and Knight's brother, Jordan, 37, has continued to record.

Photobucket

LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!
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Jan. 19th, 2008 @ 06:20 pm Amazing...
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Dec. 30th, 2007 @ 06:09 pm Ah...the end to a year...
Current Location: Silverlake Coffeehouse
Current Music: Joe Purdy
In honor of this wonderful beginning I would like to recap the top ten best and worst for me personally in 2007 (they of course are in no particular order)

To end this post on a good note I will start off with the worst...

1. Being poor...an on going battle I hope will end.

2. Losing friends...Justin moved far away, and well in more dramatic sense Vanessa, not sure what happened there.

3. My kitty Hazel past away.

4. My mice having babies!!! AHHHHH!!! worst ever!

5. Working at Psychobabble.

6. That routine visit to the gyno...never pleasant.

7. The writers strike.

8. Lars and the Real Girl.

9. Driving across country in December!

10. My kitchen faucet and parking tickets!

And now on with the best!!

1. Getting a manager and an agent that are amazing! Thanks, Lynn!!

2. A lead in a great little indie film that was the best experience ever!

3. Getting fired from Psychobabble.

4. Great new friends!

5. Getting my SAG card!

6. Hillbilly Casino at the Bluegrass Inn in Nashville!

6 1/2. No Country For Old Men.

7. A part in a new tv show called The Watch!

8. That paycheck from The Watch!

9. Bloody Mary's.

10. Last but not least not ever! Meeting Tim.

All in all it's been a good year. The good out way the bad and life never hands me shit I can't handle. I am going to make it...definitely.
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Dec. 16th, 2007 @ 11:28 pm It's been sometime!
It's been awhile but this is funny!

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Nov. 17th, 2007 @ 06:36 pm havent been here in awhile...
gonna be short cause i gotta pee...

update:

-got car insurance!
-changed my apartment around...looks great!
-saw wristcutters (LOVED IT) and American Gangster (good but so so long...ass fell asleep, twice!)
-PB has rats and cockroaches...stay away!
-only have 5 mice now!
-going to Nashville next week, Yea!
-driving home for christmas, so excited for the road trip.
-the wonderful movie I did is so going to be great and successful, thanks to the writers strike!
-miss everyone!

damn really gotta pee!
I vote for universal health care!!!! thinking of moving to Canada or Europe...
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